there's a lot of thought i wanna share. let me share this rocky note, as the beginning.
at some point in life, feel like somehow everything around moves really fast. and i am just like a dot in the middle of a fast lane. look around, feel confused. it happens many times, and every time it happens again, still confused. why. and how. hate questions, that i forget the answer. why do we need to look good? why can't we make a mistake? why can't we let things happen on its own? why does concern burden your shoulder?
met good, kind, great people is really a wonderful experience. a good chance. sometimes is rare. a moment to be cherished, for all the good side that they brings. the moment i step back a lil bit, realize how far i am from it. reality hits really hard. sometimes fall to the ground, unprepared. that was hurt, got beaten by the ground. one clean ground, turn into a rough rocky ground, just for this day. sadly. happily. put a word called heartless as a shield. weirdly, in the end, what's meant to break, broken into pieces anyway. u can't deny it.
someone ever said, when i practice driving on a real road in early days ... "u need to keep on mind, every other car doesn't care about ur struggle, how lacking u r, or how newbie u r. what they know u fit in the lane. u know the rule. so just do it like a pro". even u r not there yet, gods will help u, to get there. and also, practice makes perfect u know, a classic.
old days words: the world still spinning, why do u need to stop, then? time still ticking, they did not let u die today, so keep going. cheers up. the thank you i want to say never really comes out. if someday u see this, probably never, but its okay. u need to know, i truly deeply grateful for your existence. thenkyuu.
